HOW?

Usually I quote a scripture before I begin, something that I have read that has spoken to me... this time I have chosen to just write.  How do you forgive yourself? When you stop and take a deep look at yourself, how do you forgive that ugly person looking back at you?  Are you not reminded of all the times you have repented of things and asked God to forgive you - only to go right back out and fall into the same trap? 

    I do believe God forgives us, the cycle comes from the heart and not having a complete change of heart and removing the foothold from your life. Changing your heart takes lots of one on one time and brutal honesty with God, He will change your heart and show you where those footholds are – though you still have to remove them. 

   I have been working through removing footholds from my life,  because I did not like who I saw in the mirror.  I was haunted by the skeletons and poor decisions of my past and through God’s grace I can heal my spirit. Eventually becoming the man God has called me to be. 

   Though I still struggle with forgiving myself… there are real world consequences for our actions and those actions can cause loved ones to suffer.  So as that suffering is manifested, how do you forgive yourself?  You can use it as a reminder so you never fall into that trap again… but you still suffer.