I am confused, hurt, lost, and beside myself. Have you ever believed in something with all your heart and everything you have? You pray about it and have a sense of peace and believe what you are doing is right? You can see your future, you are happy, you know this is what you were meant to do, and that you were made to come together? Then you get hit, blind sided and devastated? You never wanted to see it coming, you chose to hope beyond hope and love with all you have… but you are left feeling it is not good enough. Am I fatally flawed? Why am I not worth a chance? If all the things we said were true, why are we here?
I have tremendous hope that this is not over… my soul aches. I know that they are hurting too. The demons of their past have a death grip on their spirit and is trying to kill them. I only hope and pray that they will take my hand. Together we will heal and become more than we would ever be by ourselves.
In our lives fear can grip us so tight that we are paralyzed, or we flee and deny ourselves a future. It you are unhappy now, why not take a chance. Why allow the “what if’s” to haunt us forever? I can not force anyone to try… I can only hope that they will. Until then I must wait and pray. I know it is true. To quote Forrest Gump, “I may not be a smart man, but I know what love is!” J, I love you.
You never truly love a person until, the mere thought of you hurting that loved one is enough
to break your own heart!"
-Author Unknown
Posted by: unknown | October 14, 2008 at 08:47 AM