Have you ever been so in love that the mere thought of being without that person crushes your spirit. Whenever you are apart you wonder what they are doing, or you daydream of when you will see them next. To some I may be describing infatuation - and that might be true to a point. Though what I am talking about is not just a feeling, it is a sense of self. Everything in your being knows you are to be with this person, you mesh on every level. You see your future and know this is right. A selfless love, the type of love some believe only exists in fairy tales... but you know it is true.
Now imagine it taken away - denied by forces beyond your control, fueled by misunderstandings and fear. You are helpless and devastated. The other person believes they are sparing you from heart ache and that the fear of more pain is too great... your world has just been turned upside down. No communication, just left with your own thoughts and screaming "why!" There are things that need to be said, fears to be silenced, and a chance to be taken.
How can I find myself here... was on top of the world, I felt hope, love, happiness, and a sense of peace about the future. Now I can not even see the sun............ I know they are afraid and I do understand that. I am scared too. But the pain I feel now is so great, worse than anything I have ever felt. We are in control of our future and our lives, why choose to suffer because of what might happen... Communication is the key, the fears can be silenced with communication... without it we suffer in the darkness. Will I remain this empty shell? How do I smile now?
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