Sometimes in life you feel like a pawn in some sadistic game of checkers. Yes, I know pawns are chess pieces - but that is my point, the lowest, least powerful piece for the entirely wrong game! We open ourselves to others, we trust, we hope and in the blink of an eye we are left alone to try to make sense of all the pieces of what used to be our lives.
As you pick up the pieces you can not help but examine them as you weigh their new importance in your "life". Some of these pieces were so real at one time - they were the granite foundations upon which we built everything. Now they are merely paper mache and crumble as we try to hold them. As each piece disintegrates in our hands, our world is sent reeling; "Was it ever real? Did I ever really know them? Who were they? Who am I?" These questions shake our very core.
Soon our spinning hits another gear, we start to doubt our own judgment and in turn start to believe that we are broken beyond repair and worthless. These lies are perpetuated by a sinful and evil world - a world determined to make us believe we are worthless and unworthy to be loved or be happy. This is a fatal trap that some people spend their entire lives trying to escape. The problem is compounded because we are not able to break the hold the world has on us alone. We need help, we need God.
God is the only one that can heal us and restore us to be what he has called us to be. We are not able to fix ourselves, no matter how hard we try. It takes surrendering our will to Him and accepting the love He gives us freely. Only then can we be happy and know love. Through this new found peace we are able to forgive and truly heal, until then we are forever the pawn in the wrong game.
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