A Battered Warrior

This Too Shall Pass

 

 

 

THIS  TOO  SHALL  PASS

 

 

Know what to do –n- what to say,

All my life it’s been this way.

Half of truth but mainly lies,

Hardened heart, darkened eyes.

 

Advice comes from all around,

See them speaking, hear no sound.

“The truth shall set you free!”

Maybe for you, not for me.

 

Deep inside I know what’s right,

Turn from darkness to the light.

Sounds so easy, peace and love,

True happiness comes from above.

   

“God’s in charge, He has a plan,”

Everyone says “He’s the man.”

No one knows the pain I feel,

Words are nice but pain is real!

 

My world spins side to side,

Nowhere to run or to hide.

To my knees and on my face,

“How did I get to this place?”

 

Only one way out that I know,

Through our trials, faith does grow.

By looking back to the past,

Know this suffering too won’t last.

                                                                                                                             -TG

 

 

The Dance

 

 

THE DANCE

The dance begins all anew,

Hoping, praying this one’s true.

Laughter heals wounds of old,

Ready to run or dare be bold?

In a crowd they are alone,

Through their eyes their hearts are shown.

A cautious smile, a fleeting glance,

This is how we start the dance.

Flirty smile, a gentle touch,

“Show your interest”- not too much.

Handshake, hug, perhaps a kiss,

“Why’s it always start like this?”

Time marches quickly by,

“Make a move, should I try?”

“Play it safe or take a chance?”

All a part of the dance.

                                -TG

 

 

  

Broken People

 

 

BROKEN PEOPLE

Broken people we do not see,

Of course not you, Of course not me.

Broken hearts that refuse to mend,

Poor choices now, don’t see the trend?

Broken bones and flesh will heal,

Pain of the heart is much more real.

Broken promises, truth and lies,

Only words but can crush our lives.

Through Broken mirror my face I see,

Am I that bad? Of course not me!

Broken spirit, a heart of stone,

Choose to live and die alone.

   

Broken lives can be made whole,

Die to self and ways of ole.

Broken and battered on the cross,

Paid the debt to save the lost.

Broken people for all to see,

Yes it’s you, Yes it’s me.

Broken once, but no more lies,

Filled with joy, it’s in their eyes.

                                        -TG

             

 

 

My Own Hell

 

 

MY OWN HELL

Searching for reasons, searching for why,

There are no answers just questions –n-lies.

“You have to hope, you have to fight,”

“Don’t worry it will be all right!”

Pressures mount as the walls close in,

Viscous attacks, they come again.

Bruised and battered, left to die,

Blood filled tears that I cry.

Hollow and cold, yet numb inside,

Fight the fight – I know I’ve tried.

Doubts scream and shake my core,

What to do? – I have no more.

                                                -TG

 

 

CRACKED

 

 

CRACKED

Pressure mounts, depression grabs hold,

My life it seems can be bought n sold.

Why’d it happen? When will it end?

Vicious cycles begin again!

Friends betray – confidence lost,

Paid the price – twice the cost!

As walls close in – no justice here,

My only friends – dread and fear.

No simple pleasures left in life,

Only heartache, anguish, pain and strife.

Break the hold this has on me,

God alone can set me free.

                               

                                -TG

 

 

Turned Away

 

TURNED AWAY

Given freely – with no strings,

My love for you is many things.

A simple note, a quick phone call,

Freely given, no strings at all.

Pressures mount as fear sets in,

Two as one – together we win.

Fairy tales, romantic dreams,

Magical moments or so it seems.

Phone is silent, no more calls,

Spirit sailing – soon it falls.

Love I have – seems so true,

Only love I have for you.

Pushed away, at night I cry,

With no answers, only why!

Now I sit - myself alone,

Still I love, just not shown.

                        -TG

 

 

An Angel

                       

    

An Angel     

                             

Day to day she hears my cries,

Compassion fills her helpless sighs.

Though the pain she did not bring,

To her quite like a broken wing.

The pain comes from choices made,

As pain increases, memories fade.

“What’d I do?” “It’s not my fault”,

Opinions differ, same result.

To my cries, she can not go,

The man upstairs  has said NO.

“Not quite yet, he’s soon to start,

I’m just waiting for a change of heart.”

Through the pain my angels wait,

Learn my lesson, or repeat my fate?

Anxious crowds await to see,

“We will he learn to be free?”

At that moment, there’s a spark,

Not a fire – but it’s a start.

Now another - compassion flows,

From Black to Red – Love it Grows.

The Father’s smile lights the room,

Chase away the pain and gloom.

“Go and get him. Help him heal.

His change of heart is for real.”

                                            -TG

 

 

Crushed

 

CRUSHED

“In the darkness, alone I sit,

Tired of being – dare I quit?

Battered and beaten – thrown away,

Hard to face my life one more day!

Pain of the past – cruel words spoken,

Wreck my spirit – my will is broken.

Destined a mistake right from birth,

Will anyone ever see my true worth?

The vicious cycle is all I know,

Retreat to self – inside I go.

Disappointment – life has for me,

All I’ve known – does it have t’be?”

Repeat patterns – results the same!

Believe in true love – let hope remain!

My hand I offer to you alone –

Our fairy tale WILL be shown!

Fear it grips and starts to squeeze,

Robs your strength – drop to your knees.

With you forever, I will stand –

At your side – hand in hand.

Come together and never part,

Best friends we are – that’s the start.

In my arms you’re meant to be,

Loved, alive, accepted, and free!

More precious than diamonds in your ring,

To your voice my heart does sing.

Your worth to me you’ll never know,

Each day for you, my love does grow.

                                                               

No more regrets, just take my hand,

The test of time, our love will stand.

To you alone – I’d share my life,

Me your husband – you my wife.

 -TG

 

 

 

Flesh, Blood, & Nail

FLESH, BLOOD, & NAIL

Anger rages in my soul,

Decisions made take their toll.

Cold and numb, left unfeeling,

Feel as though my skin is peeling!

Searching, seeking, never find,

Fumble through life as I’m blind.

In front of me answers sit,

For each problem one does fit.

Only truth comes from above,

Saved by grace and His love.

Though I try and often fail,

Debts were paid – flesh, blood & nail.

Repeat my past would be a sin,

Follow the path of many men.

A chance to start all over new,

To thy self one must be true.

                                                                                                                                -TG

Real

REAL

Since the dawn of time my fate was set,

Only realized since we met.

Our hearts were made to be together,

Growing, changing, but fleeing never.

In your eyes my soul does rest,

As your head lays on my breast.

Hear my heart – it beats for you,

It always has – though I never knew.

In my life I’ve often failed,

Many nights my soul has wailed.

Dark, alone, cold, and broken,

Pains came from harsh words spoken.

Now I am born anew,

Hope and Love I’ve found in you.

Though at times, fear I feel,

Just assures me – this is real.

                                                -TG

New Beginning

   

NEW BEGINNING

In the darkness I now dwell,

Destined to live in this hell?

Why I’m here I do not know,

Mind is racing to and fro.

New beginning to our life,

Me your husband – you my wife.

Visions fading, dreams are shattered,

Both our hearts are left tattered.

Why can’t we just choose to be,

You and me – our family.

True love is within our reach,

Will you join me on the beach?

                             -TG

 

A Mask

A MASK

As I sit and people stare,

Do they see – or even care?

Behind my mask – my thoughts do race,

Not revealed by my cold stone face.

With a mask a hero is made,

Unknown identity – the price he’s paid.

Only he knows his pain,

Time like this – he feels insane.

Does anyone know the real me?

Or is my existence a mystery?

Years of guarding and hiding of heart,

Never knowing what caused the start.

Now he hurts and needs to cry,

But all he can muster is a sigh.

Dejected and left all alone,

His mask in place – no emotion shown.

                                                                -TG

You

YOU

As a tulip is drawn to the sun,

My heart longs for you.

The love I have can not be won,

No matter what you do.

The sweetest fragrance God has made,

Can not compare with thee.

No matter what price I’ve paid,

My love could never flee.

Men would die to touch your face,

Though that is only the start.

They are searching in the wrong place,

The real beauty is in your heart.

                                -TG

Circle

CIRCLE

Life’s a circle, or so they say,

Cycles continue, day to day.

Friends to lovers, lovers to friends,

As one starts the other ends.

Roots of friendship deep and strong,

The love I feel – it can’t be wrong.

It was unwanted and discarded,

I walk alone, heavy hearted.

Mixed emotions lead to fights,

Hearts breaking and sleepless nights.

For no reason, I cling to still,

To be together, I hope we will.

                                                -TG

Just My Thoughts.....

   In our lives we are promised nothing,

   And receive even less.

   Rejoice if you get something,

   And if it is Love, you are truly blessed.

                                                -TG

Hope

                     HOPE

I choose to hope, choose to believe,

Longing denied, heart won’t concede.

See her face and heart skips a beat,

Longing for when lips will meet.

Alone we both deal with our pain,

Heartache and scars, are our prison chains.

Together we will be so free,

Each holds a key, our chance to be.

To be happy, to be alive,

Once united, we too will thrive.

Darkness and fears now grip your soul,

Spiraling back to days of ole.

Voices taunt and the screams do haunt,

Only deny you what you want.

Fears strangle your hopes and dreams,

Destined for pain, alone you scream.

The voices lie, and crush your hope,

Not equipped , how do you cope?

The ways you know, kill your very soul,

Questions echo, where will you go?

There is a choice you’ve yet to make,

You can choose to love for love’s sake.

There are risks and sure there are fears,

Laugh at them in our golden years.

The choice is yours alone to make,

Confusion mounts, your soul does shake.

Take a chance or submit to fear,

All I know is I love you dear.

                                                -TG

Voices

                   VOICES

"You're not worthy", "Wish you'd die!"

Replay my life, just wonder why?

Images of my yesterdays,

Haunt my days - fuel my decay.

Alone I sit fighting to hope,

Not within me - How do I cope?

Advice comes - circles around me,

Based on what they choose to see.

Only I know my own hell,

I lived it, I know it well!

Want another to hold my hand,

Through thick and thin we will stand.

The one I found is just like me,

Longs for happy, longs to be free!

As we heal and mend our hearts,

The 'Happy ever after' soon starts.

                                           -TG

J

                     J

My love for her makes me weak,

As the tears fall down my cheek.

To hold her close by my side,

"Till Death Do Part", she's my bride.

Love denied and happiness lost,

Love her still, despite the cost!

To hold her close and never flee,

My love is real, it's meant for thee.

Fears and doubts bring questions and pain,

The voices echo, drives us insane!

To take a chance - I ask of you,

Erase your fears - my love is true!

Now I sit and I now must wait,

To see what will be true love's fate.

To bring her here, my heart longs for,

Happiness always - pain no more!

                                             -TG

 

Silence

               SILENCE

Deafening silence - "What if" thoughts,

Impossible questions, answers sought.

With idle time - my thoughts do drift,

I beg for death, just make it swift!

Lost my focus and downcast eyes,

Faith is swayed by all their lies.

I want to hope and want to feel,

My true love, this time be real!

Ghosts of the past pains I've felt,

Haunt me now, though I've dealt.

My armor's now worn and faded,

Can not let my heart be jaded.

My true love and I will unite,

Never let go - we must fight.

Chance for happy, a chance for peace,

A chance to claim my Golden Fleece.

                                         -TG

Missing Piece

      MISSING PIECE

In the mirror I often find -

When I take time to press rewind;

Memories both bitter and sweet,

Mistakes I made - dare not repeat.

Pain of the past decisions made,

Though long ago, scars don't fade.

Days gone bye and lessons learned,

Have I found the one I yearned?

Hopes now fill my thoughts and my dreams,

My Missing Piece? - so it seems.

The future now seems oh so bright,

Her by my side, I know it's right.

To kiss her cheek is my desire,

Emotions rage like a wild fire.

Her beauty is true, in and out -

Love her I do, without a doubt.

                                   -TG

Goodnight

               GOODNIGHT

  Sleep a peaceful sleep my dear,

  Let my Love calm your fear.

  Dream about a prairie field,

  Know my Love will never yield.

  Smell the flowers fresh and strong,

  Makes your heart sing a song.

  Feel the breeze against your face,

  No harm will find you in this place.

  Sit beneath a shaded tree,

  Know again - I'm with thee.

  Rest your head upon the grass,

  Free to sleep and dream at last.

  As you dream, my watch I'll keep,

  Protect your spirit as you sleep.    

  My Love is with you - it will never leave,

  My Love - it lives in the air you breathe.

                                              -TG

Parting

          PARTING

'Parting is such sweet sorrow'

These words I had to borrow.

Sorrow now, turns to sweet,

My true love I will meet.

Touch her hand and I will chill,

Love her completely, I know I will.

Now my heart is cold and numb,

To love another, one day will come.

Months will pass till I find,

Whose soul with mine shall be entwined.

I long for love, I really do,

Just next time I hope it's true.

                                  -TG

A THREAD

          A THREAD

Love alive,  deep and red,

Woven through life, like a thread.

Stronger than man has made,

Can't be cut by any blade.

No one knows where they start,

Begin and end in the heart.

Their strength is from desperate times,

Growing, changing, the intertwine.

Two hearts woven oh so tight,

Only comes when souls unite.

Constantly growing - never ending,

Knows no limits - it's transcending.

No single thread alone can thrive,

Needs another to 'least survive.

Needs a partner in its life,

Needs a husband, needs a wife.

                                               -TG