I am sitting here, yet again trying to figure out what is wrong with me. Why can I not find my happiness? If I found it, would I be allowed to keep it? I am annoyed and angry with everything and ready to fight. I have no patience, no sympathy, and most important, no compassion.
I can not understand when people complain about their lives and how others “ruin” things for them. These are the same people that will not break the cycle. They give everyone else power over their lives, and then complain that they are not happy. You know your heart, not anyone else – but if you let others dictate your life, you have no one to blame but yourself for your current situation. Though I am guilty of this too…. How do we set boundaries?
I am VERY guilty of this trap myself. I have allowed my hopes and happiness to be determined by others, only to find myself crushed and alone on a regular basis. I take people at their word. A promise is a promise, an apology comes from the heart, and the words “I love you” are priceless. I forget that we live in a world that is corrupt and determined to crush and destroy everything in its path. I forget that instead of turning to God, we tend to look inward and try to “fix” things ourselves. We can’t. We can not fix anything without God. Sure we can put a band aid on just about anything, or convince ourselves we have. In reality a band aid does nothing for a severed limb, but we go about our daily routine comforting ourselves and our self aid. Then we can not understand why we are bleeding everywhere, making a mess, and suddenly our body begins to fail from all the disease and infection we have introduced by our own doing.
What is the answer? God. Sound like a cop out? Maybe to some, but to anyone that has experienced His healing it is the only answer. We can only be properly and permanently healed by our creator….
Comments